|The Rev Chaos Hellbound||
Joined Mar 27 2009
People are stupid. Person is smart. So people I have no faith in. I prayed the other day... really... I prayed for dencency in the human race. Something happened to me and I was in awe how little decency was found amongst my peers. I realized that I had too much faith in people, and too much hope they could do the "right thing" instead of the "what feels good thing" granted I induldge in trouble too... but not at the expense of anothers demise. Humanity is few and far between but nevertheless is impactful... and its not the length of impact but the size that counts. Most of my ex's can FUCK off for all I care. But you have to understand... propaganda is coming from both sides, and what knowledge do you have that is superior to those around you to discern fact from fiction? I am fully supportive and have a huge respect for our process. Politicians on the other hand I have less admiration for. There is NEVER a dull moment with me. No matter how exhausted or drained you are... I will make you keep going. Some people find this irritating but I find it passionate. I am almost always looking for a reason to get unclothed, or get others unclothed... or both. I have never gotten anywhere by being part of the crowd, which exudes ambition and at the same time creates loneliness. I am addicted to people and feed off of high energy personalities. My only favorite person in the world is Phlame because she is the most distinctly beautiful person I have ever met, inside and out. I will rock you so hard that you might not make it through the night. I destroy everything I touch. I want my hair pulled... hard. My soul craves freedom from negativity and unconstructive criticism. You will never be the one. I feel less enthusiastic about conditional love and the inability to be faithful. Creativity is depressingly calming. I am AMAZING. I am relentless and I won't sleep until I get what I want. Art is better than sexual indulgence but sexual indulgence is better than food. I appreciate that regularly. I resort to violence on any occassion. I ruin my relationships because I feel chaos is necessary. Perfection scares me, but I do not expect anything less from myself. I will sacrifice everything for an enemy. And I will lose everything because of it.